The Addictive World of the Future
|May 17, 2012||Posted by the color scheme under Blogging, Creative Writing, Life, Opinions, Personal, Random, Real Life, Stories, Thoughts|
We sometimes get so busy planning out our future, which is way ahead of us, that we sometimes compromise the important things that the present brings us.
We sure do this a lot. We sit and dream about our future but forget to do the things that ought to be done in the present. We often provide the possible outcomes for us in the future but forget to address to the problems that we have in the present.
What is it in the future that makes it so interesting? If you don’t have an answer for that, just like me, well you certainly got your answer. We do not know. That is why we are so interested in making assumptions about what is going to happen because we don’t know what exactly will happen.
You see, I have been planning my future and laying out this plan to my family and friends since I was 6 years old. Now, that’s not the kind of things that a six year old must think about but I had a different childhood. Anyways, I always tell myself that I wanted to be rich and famous. I want to do the things that I love and get paid for doing them. I want a perfect family of my own which will guarantee me a fulfilling life. I want a husband who will take off his coat for me when I am cold. I want to buy my father a yacht and a ranch. I want my mother to become the strong woman that she always dreamt of. I want my sister to follow her heart and be happy with her life. I want these things to happen in the future. But I absolutely have no idea how to achieve these things. I don’t know. It seems that it’s so easy to plan it all in my head than to make it happen. It’s so easy to dream it out than to turn it into a reality.
This brings me to the second point. Why do we all think that dreaming is the favorite habit of anyone in planet Earth? It is because it is easy to make it happen in your head than to make it happen in the real world. It all sounds so perfect and possible in our imaginations that we simply forget of the obstacles that might come our way in the process. We lose our heads into thinking that it will always turn out the way we imagined things to be. That’s why we easily give up when everything turns the other way or something shatters our dreams and plans.
In my case, focusing so much on the future sometimes makes me confused about the things that I really want in my life to happen. It makes me lose sight of the things that really mattered to me. I completely forgot the essence of doing the things that I do now, in the near future. It leaves me with nothing but a messed up heart and an annoying headache.
I go to this school that I thought would be best for my future career and life and chose a course that I am currently in doubt of. I don’t really know if this is mere sadness or longing that I feel but what I do know is that it’s not doing me any good. Anyway, I always loved psychology. But the thing that really mattered to me is art. I love creating things. I love writing. I love drawing clothes more than analyzing people. I love doing movies with people who share my interest and perspective. I love looking at homes, wonderful homes. I love clothes and shoes. I love design and color and I love performing, although I haven’t been able to upon entering college. I want my own business. I want to earn. But the real thing is, I do not know what I want. I want so many things to happen in my life that I often feel confused. It’s like I want to be a puppet who belongs to a puppeteer who share my humor, my thoughts, my perspectives in life and just let that puppeteer rule my life once and for all. But I know that I couldn’t do that. As what my inner alter ego says, I’ve got to be my own person.
I do not know what I’m doing in college in the first place. People tell me that the course I took up cannot guarantee me an easy life in the future. They tell me that I should’ve taken up accountancy and become more like my sister. But the thing is, I don’t want to be like her. Don’t get me wrong, she is an amazing person who’s got an awesome job, but the thing is, I want to be like me. I want to be my own person. However, another problem arises there, as if I haven’t got tons already, I do not know what it’s like to be like me. Well, I’ve caught glimpses of her once in a while but she keeps slipping away from me. I don’t know where she’s at most of the times. It’s like she’s been hiding from me all of these years and I couldn’t get a hold of her for too long.
My friend sent me a text message about how her life would turn out. I was jealous of her. She had it all planned out and she’s acting upon it to make it happen. While there is me, who keeps on dreaming about her future but not really getting there.
I guess, this is the kind of thing that we should all avoid. We, becoming indifferent to what the present life is throwing at us. As much as it is fascinating to imagine ourselves in the next 10 years or so, it is more relevant to stop and look at ourselves right at this very moment. It’s not wrong to dream, I mean, it’s not a crime. But let us not dwell so much in it until we miss out on all the good stuff in the present. Let us not end up hating ourselves for not turning out who we always dreamt of to become. Let us just live for the present moment, dream a little and explore our wide horizons.
As the Brits always say, Keep Calm and Carry On.